I don't know exactly what a prayer is.
I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down
into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass,
how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields,
which is what I have been doing all day.
Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?

from Mary Oliver's "The Summer Day"

Friday, January 28, 2011

In case you needed another reason



If you're looking for another hash mark in the "nerd" column for me, I am inordinately excited about completing this little sweater an hour or so ago for Laura. If you're even a moderately experienced knitter, please ignore all my little errors. I've definitely got a lot to learn in the finishing department. A lot. And I also cannot tie a bow to save my life.

I can't wait until she gets up to try this on her. It will function as a nice little robe substitute at 6 o'clock tomorrow morning. Next up is a hat in the pink yarn. And I forgot to mention the legwarmers I just knit Laura as well. (I didn't take any pictures since they're a plain-as-it-gets camel color. In fact, I bought the yarn when I was still pregnant last winter and the lady at the yarn store just assumed I was having a boy based on my yarn choice. No, I'm just really boring and prefer to not deal in pastels.) I'm on a roll, and this is saying something seeing as my prime time for knitting rolls (not as in edible "knitting rolls") is while I'm pregnant. I'm definitely not pregnant. 

Saturday, January 22, 2011

This week: A snow day, a sick day, and a surreal night





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Let's start with the snow day. I think our house looks pretty in the snow, as does everything else. Will loves the snow and could only be coaxed inside with the promise of hot chocolate. I bundled Laura up and took her out, too. She tried to catch snowflakes on her tongue but I think mainly because tilting her head back gave her the best view of everything considering her hat and hood that probably gave her an obstructed perspective on her surroundings. It was especially cute whatever the reason, as are most of the things that she does.

The snow day was on Thursday. Sunday through Thursday brought a strange and tragic turn of events for our little neighborhood as we returned from IKEA Sunday night to find a police barricade and to be told that we couldn't get to our house because of a SWAT situation at our neighbors'. Our neighbor at the top of the hill, who we share a driveway with, had a gun in his house and refused to surrender to police. Suffice it to say that things like this don't really happen here. (Really, should they happen anywhere?) We later found out that he killed his wife, refused to let paramedics in to treat her and then tried to kill himself before the police shot tear gas into the house and finally got him to surrender some four hours later. We got back in our house at 10:30 but various police cars, ambulances, SWAT trucks (SWAT teams are serious business, if you've had the good fortune to have never witnessed up close), crime scene vehicles and the like were in and out all night and have been ever since.

I guess the only positive from this night is that we weren't at home for all of this. Jamison had a work dinner that he had to go to and I was planning on staying home and getting the kids in bed at their normal bedtimes. Since Laura goes to bed so early, this usually means that we're in for the night no later than five or so. But for whatever reason, we decided that we'd all go and I'd take the kids to IKEA since Will loves to play in their play area, allowing Laura and me to walk around without trying to corral Will and keep him focused on the task at hand. So then we'd pick Jamison up from his dinner and head home, which is what we did only to return to complete chaos and mayhem. I would've had to take the kids to the basement and stay there with them until the situation was resolved. By myself. I would've known that my neighbor, 50 yards from our house, from my kids' bedrooms, had a gun and was in an obviously not-stable frame of mind. I would not have handled this well. Instead, we were driving around, trying to figure out what was going on. Which I guess, all things considered, was the best situation for us to have been in.

With everything that's been going on lately and our all-violence, all-the-time culture, I tend to think that the world has gone mad. And that this is slowly becoming our new reality. A part of me wants to keep all four of us here, at home, all the time and never leave. But I know that keeping everyone home with me isn't the answer. I wish it were that simple. Plus it probably wouldn't result in the most well-adjusted of kids. But still. Life goes on, as it must.

Our lives have gone on this week to include an all-day-Monday stomach bug for Will and a possible stress fracture in Jamison's foot, in addition to the snow and cold and police goings-on at the neighbors'.

Laura has remained through everything such a sweet little girl and, with one little glance in her direction, continues to remind me that there is good in this crazy world, that most people are, in fact, genuinely good people who wish no one harm. See? (I think her hair reminds me alternately of Davy Jones and Justin Bieber. Is that strange? I feel like sometimes I go to get her up from a nap and she has more hair than she did when she went to sleep. Hopefully this suggests a future with thicker hair for her than her mother has.)



(Full disclosure:  I cropped this picture to avoid showing off our disgusting tile and grout. A recent email to the Grout Doctor went unanswered. Perhaps he's been tipped off to the level of disgusting that resides in our bathroom.)



Such a sweet little girl. Her brother? Is completely and totally rotten. See?



He does everything with "his friends" right now and often requests that I take their picture. These pictures aren't ever really particularly good pictures but he seems to enjoy them. Yesterday, Hippo had a dance party for his birthday and we all held hands (which involved a good amount of finagling the stuffed friends and ourselves into a suitable arrangement in which no one was dangling at inopportune angles and locations and everyone could see the cake and birthday boy) and sang to him. I'm guessing the holding hands and singing thing comes from school since it's not something our family has ever done, at least not to my knowledge. It's still kind of foreign to me that Will has a few hours every week in which I don't really know exactly what he's doing. Welcome, but still foreign. Anyway, here they are:



Mr. Bear sustained a head wound some time ago, which you can see to the right of his eye. You can also see Hippo (Will has him in kind of a headlock) and giraffe blanket (in front of Hippo). Not pictured here is Giraffe (stuffed giraffe, not to be confused with the blanket with a giraffe on it) and Lovey. (I just realized that our naming of animals and friends around here certainly lacks creativity and individuality.) Maybe if we have another baby we'll just name it Baby (nobody would put her in a corner) or Third Child or something equally imaginative.

(How did this end up with a Dirty Dancing reference?)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Out with the Old



(Round One of The Great 2011 Clean Out. It took up a good bit of our front porch. By way of nothing else than the title...)

I know, I know. It's been more than a month and I've been totally and completely absent. I certainly hope I haven't disappointed my vast audience (does six people qualify as "vast?"). We're finally on the other side of what appears to have been the real winter of our discontent, with three of the four of us on two fun rounds of antibiotics and a case of jolly old strep for me worked in the middle of it all. I have to say that the end of 2010 wasn't exactly our best stretch of months there.

I was, in addition to being ill for a little while, a regular old Scrooge when it came to Christmas this year. We didn't even get our tree up until the Saturday before Christmas and that was only because Santa Claus was visiting Cincinnati the following morning. (Haven't you heard? He comes to Cincinnati earlier than everywhere else for some reason.) But he came, he saw, and he even left a few presents.

Will got a kitchen and some play food, a few games and other odds and ends, in addition to the real stars of his Christmas show, a few sets of train tracks to expand his Geotrax empire. (I will say, even though he's mine and I know I'm a little bit biased, he's actually pretty impressive with his track-building. I'm glad that spatial ability appears not to be totally dependent on maternal genetics, as I am woefully incompetent in such matters.) He spends long stretches of time constructing elaborate track setups and then watching quite seriously as his train makes its rounds. So Santa's new additions have obviously aided in his quest to conquer the Geotrax world. (They really are good train tracks, completely indestructible with lots and lots of expansion opportunities and tunnels and accessories and the like. Will gives them an enthusiastic two thumbs up.)

Laura, as all babies tend to do, enjoyed the wrapping paper and ribbons just as much as her actual gifts (books, puffs and a few new toys, in case you wanted to know). The entire video of Will coming out to discover his loot, unwrap gifts, and play with these gifts features Laura breastfeeding in the background, so concerned with Santa's gifts was she. She was pretty jolly for the festivities afterwards but really perked up when we put her in her high chair for her puffs. I find it a little hard to comprehend that her first Christmas has already come and gone.




Santa visit: check. Kitchen played with: check. Gifts unwrapped: check. Hand eaten: check.



Puffs are the cream in her coffee.



Every time I look at Laura in this picture, I think of rainbows and sunshine and laughter. Every time I look at Will in this picture, I think of  this:


All he needs is a pitchfork. And a solemn farm wife.

I'll end here for now. I promise it won't be another month before you hear from us again. Barring more sickness and additional bottles of amoxicillin in the fridge-a-dater, that is.